Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I've lost it
It's become painfully obvious that the marathon isn't going to happen in October. Perhaps I'll go somewhere warm in February or March and run it there, but for the near future, it's off the schedule. My weight hasn't changed (more than three pounds either way) since January. I got a job. I'm no longer suffering from the post-breakup compulsion to work out. The result of these independent factors is that I've completely lost it. I have no real desire to work out. I don't even care that much if I lose my heart and lung capacities that took soooooo long to build up. Once my arm muscles start getting soft I'm sure I'll care, but for now I've given up. What a lousy feeling. Yet, I'm too apathetic to care.